Home at last and Tired.

I've never seen a baby soooo desperate to be in his own bed.. Chris entertained him from Oxnard til Castaic and then he cried himself to sleep (about 40 minutes) and then a song came on that startled him and he cried until we finally got him in his bed..  He did stop for a minute until I had to take two seconds to pee and he had a melt down pushing me to his bedroom and pointing to his bed saying "nigh nigh" and crying. I tried to change his diaper, but no, he just wanted to sleep..  I feel the same way. 

Why Oxnard? Matthew Chris' cousin has joined the Army and is leaving Tues. So we had a little fair-well party. It was nice seeing everyone and being out of the hot weather here.  We pray that he will be fine and come home soon to start the next chapter of his life.. 

On the way home I had this overwhelming fear that we were going to crash again and this time it wouldn't go so well.. I silently cried from Castaic to Bak myself.  I do this thing where I live out in my head terrible terrible situations. Like dreams, but I'm awake. They become so real, it's as if they are happening. At times they are paralyzing. These daydreams are always terrible.. I won't go into details of tonight's, but I fear that I will not be able to sleep. There must be a name for this. Paranoia???  Anxiety??? Who knows.. But 2 car accidents in the same month are not helping.. I really need to stay home for awhile and rest...  Having Chris home helps.  I told Chris tonight on our way home that this years Xmas letter was going to be quite something... There is not a single month so far this year that there wasn't something out of the ordinary.. Most of it bad.. It's been a rough year. Everyone was so happy for 07 to be over and I think 08 was worse.. Now with Carina's news, it's just not getting any better..  What to do? What to do?  

PS. Susie and Matt: we missed you today. 

More Accident Photos

Well, I went by the body shop to get my things from my car and I was confused cause I couldn't find my car.. He said, "it's right here.. "  i said, "no, that's not my car" and then started crying.. I  guess I just didn't remember..  Anyhow, I got my things.. It's amazing how much junk you keep in your car and don't even know it's there..  A little embarrassing.. but whatever.. So, that's all. I'm waiting for the guy to return from lunch to tell me the damage or results of the inspection.. If they do total out my car, then then next car I get WILL have cup holders! Dammit!!!  :) (long story) 

That's my bumper on top of the hood and the blue car in the back ground of pic 2 is my rental. 

1st Off... We're OKAY!!

Today we (Chris, Me & Alex) were driving down Ming Ave. heading home to meet up with my mom to then all go to Hanford for our aunt's 85th birthday party.. Didn't make it. Instead, the car in front of us stopped suddenly, causing us to stop suddenly. At this point I thought we were going to be fine.. Situation done.. Unfortunately the car behind us couldn't stop.. She hit us (very hard) we hit the truck in front of us and he hit the car in front of him. It all happened so fast.  Our air bags deployed and Alex was very scared.  We asked each other if we were okay and then quickly got out of the car. I  think I watch too much TV, but I'm always afraid that the car will burst into flames or another person not paying attention will hit us again.. So I wanted to get us and Alex out of there.  

In the car that hit us was 7-8 year old Mia who I grabbed out of the car and the 3 of us went to the side of the street out of harms way. The mother had to stay there until the fireman cleared her to get out. Her bags didn't deploy and they were scared she had a neck injury. The other people were okay (a little sore) but it was just our two cars that had to be towed away... My poor Highlander.  :(  

It's been a big day... Coming home from it all, Alex has been difficult. Not on purpose, but we're just both tired and too sore to play with him. He is perfectly fine. That car seat we have is a champ..  Yeah for Costco buying good products.. 

Chris is tired and sore. We're going to go to the Dr.s tomorrow just to make sure. 

I on the other hand am just not sure what's happening in my life.. I guess God's been talking to me about things. Maybe today He was yelling.. I'm not really sure about what.  I usually feel guilty and know what He wants.. I'm thinking today was just just a coincidence but I have never believed in coincidence.. I've always believed that every thing happens for a reason. Good or bad.. It's what we do to handle situations that matter. Maybe this has nothing to do with me and only to do with the 3 other people involved.. That's fine with me.. (My friend suggested I watch "The 5 People You Meet in Heaven"..  But I can't help to think that I'm bad luck. Why am I always in the wrong place at the wrong time?  My friend jokes about the chronicles of Lacey, but it's not funny anymore. I don't like almost dying with Alex in the car 2 times in 1 month.  Not to mention baby #2 and my wonderful husband..  

Anyhow, here are some pictures of my poor, poor car..  :(  Please know that we are okay and just home resting.. God was with us, AGAIN!!!!  

Here is Alex keeping himself entertained while we wait for the police. And Yes, we get a new car seat.. It's just the rules. Car crash? new car seat.. Just in case. 

Pringles

Make Me Happy!!  Yummy!

That's all. :) 

My thumb and My Aunt Cathy

So maybe no one knows this but my nail person and Chris, but I have this TERRIBLE callus on my left thumb that is the worst I've ever seen.. It's painful, ugly, bleeds and won't go away..  The pharmacists  that with the diabetes it probably wouldn't go away.. Bull, I had gall bladder surgery and C-section and healed beautifully..  

So today I met a very nice woman who worked for Wal-Mart who told me about EMU oil..  They were out, but I found it a Walgreens.. So, it's on my thumb right now and  I think it's already working...  I  think I've been introduced to something wonderful.. I researched it and there's all kinds of info about it helping for pain arthritis (which I also have in my left toe), bruising, swelling,  etc..  So Yeah for Emu Oil.. I always liked Emus...  Not that my callus is important (just to me) but I will keep you updated.. :) 

And, I think I'm going to ask my Aunt Cathy to pray for my finances more often.. Either God likes that I asked for prayer or he listens to her more, either way I made 3 appts. for potential weddings over this next week.. 2 consultations today and 1 next week.. That one will be fun cause the wedding is in Ojai next year.. 

Thanks Aunt Cathy.. Yeah for God and prayers.. 

Now please pray that I can sleep. I had a terrible night last night which resulted in Chris having a terrible night.. I was seriously being tortured, for hours...  I almost left the house to sleep in a hotel or the car or something. I was yelling, crying and about ready to set the bombshell of a house on fire.. well gotta go. don't worry, I'm over setting the house on fire.. Gotta post some pictures on line.. 

Love to everyone. 

No First day of School for Me.

I called BAS this morning to see if they had started school this morning and they had.. I feel very left out.. I know it's been 2 years or so since I left, but I still get that feeling of stress with the shear amount of paperwork that needs to be done (which I loved doing), the new students, their crazy mail-order-bride stories, the ethnic food parties, the singing with Mr. Carey, the break time office gossip and the friday morning breakfast. I sometimes get the breakfast still, if I  take Alex by for a visit, but it's the same old questions, How's the business? How's staying at home with the baby?  They are the same questions when I go to Coscto.. Small talk I guess..  Whatever.. 

But anyway, maybe I should get a job and get out of this house.. I think that and then this morning couldn't bring my self to get out of bed until 9 am.. I was very tired and glad I didn't have to be fighting traffic at 7:30 am.. 

Really I'm just stalling my work.. It's noon and I haven't really done enough.. My office is mostly the problem.. too messy..  I can't think straight..  

Then there is the question of whether or not I get an iPhone..  My palm is on the verge of dying.. and I'm scared.. It's my life.. Some people consult the Gods, I consult the palm.... 

I have to laugh and feel guilty for being depressed and worrying about these stupid things when our family friend Carina is in the hospital waiting to have a biopsy on a brain tumor she learned about 3 days ago...  iPhones, breakfast, office gossip and messy offices don't compare to that kind of stress..  Carina, we are thinking and praying for your results to be good. I've contacted Damian and Adrienne to also pray for you. I do have peace about this and know that things will be fine.. 

Well, I should snap out of this and get to  work. 

"My" Angel Not Kelli's :)

Well our good God given friend is off to college.. We are all happy for her but also want her to stay. Rachel Brockett.... we love you and always will.. :) 

Home at Last

Well, I'm still tired from our trip, so I'll just post a few and say a little.. We had fun, I did hike, and we didn't really sleep..  But here a just a couple of favorites.. and I have also lost my husband to Alton Brown. But we're glad we went. Thanks Ian and Rachel for letting us tag along... 

Happy to Have Daddy Home

It's really nice to have Chris home.. We both really missed him.. Enjoy a typical night at the Newkirks.

Nice Surprises!

Well, my lovely husband decided to come home early.  I'm so excited.. He arrives at 10 pm. Yeah...  

Chris

One More Day till my honey comes home...  Yeah!!!