I wasn't sure if I should put this on Outrage or my own blog, but here it is.
I had my first official "Mother Bear" moment Sat. night in the parking lot going to a free (lightspeed) Condor Game. In short, an elderly man and woman (yes, elderly) decided that they would park their car right next to us while we were tying to unload sleeping children. Mind you there were about 100 other parking spaces on that level. But it wasn't really their decision to park there that made me mad; it was that she got out of the car, yelled at me to hurry up all the while he continued to back into the space where my stroller was laying in the spot and thus almost running over my stroller because he wanted me to hurry.. Let's just say they picked the wrong day and the wrong mommy to mess with.
Let me say first in my defense I didn't know they wanted to park there cause they were backing in and I wasn't sure WHAT they were doing. At the moment that she yelled at me to hurry up with my kids something inside me SNAPPED and I was not Lacey, mostly sweet :), always leveled headed, always considerate of others, will do anything for anyone, Lacey.... I turned into, if I had a gun I would shoot you, if I was in my car I'd run you over, get out of my way, don't speak to me that way (even if you have white hair), don't rush me and my kids, lunatic!
I think the first thing I yelled (and I mean yelled, the whole 2nd floor of parking, turned to watch the scene), "there are 100 other f**king other parking spots!". she then called me a b***h and I responded, still yelling, "wouldn't you be a b***h if someone was trying to run your children over?" She at some point also said I was being out of control and I responded (in a low, loud, devilish roar), "you don't know what out of control is!". Followed be, "lady you need to walk away from me right now!" and they finally did.
Now you may be wondering where the kids and Chris are at this point. Chris had Alex and wasn't saying a word and Lauren was in my arms where I was trying to put her sweater on, but shaking so hard from anger that I almost dropped her. Chris finally said, "honey, you are in the right, but you need to stop." Which was probably the smartest thing he could have said to me. Because had he not chosen his words very carefully, I could have very quickly turned on him. The LAST thing in the world he could have done was taken their side.
So I then had him to move our car away from them and we tried to gather ourselves and proceeded to the game where we tried to have a good time and then we left just before it was over because the kids were at their tired limit.
I felt compelled to leave an apology note and did so saying, "I'm sorry for yelling at you. It was not my intention to hurt you. Please forgive me, Lacey"
Then talking to Chris finally about the situation, his take was that "yes they were terribly rude to the point of being dangerous. They were crowding you so they could get to the game." Now with his take, I wanted to take my note back. They didn't deserve it, AT ALL. but he wouldn't go back, so that's were it ends with them.
The next morning at Church, of course the topic has to be all about God's Mercy and how Mercy is not Mercy at all until it is granted towards someone completely UNDESERVING. My reaction is, "UGH! ARE YOU KIDDING ME GOD????" Which of course, He is not. So, I listen to the message, I completely understand that God is speaking directly to me and I have to take a bid sigh and forgive those two completely undeserving people who were so rude to me and almost hurt my children. I will not apologize for defending my kids safety but I will try to handle it differently next time. I do feel terrible about f-bombing her twice (chris was counting :) and I never talk to people that way, but when it comes to your kids, there's just something inside of you that comes out that causes you do anything to protect them.
I also am not happy that they (Alex in particular) witnessed me tearing into this woman. I don't want him to think that behavior is okay, so for that, I will also have to really think next time about the words I use and the way I handle things.
What a crazy weekend we had..
And in other news. I have a job interview with Costco today at 2:30 pm.. If I thought our life was crazy now..... just wait.. He'll work days and I'll work nights. It's going to be tough. but it's what we have to do to get out of debt and then get ahead. Pray for me that we get it. :)
